Can You Imagine?

So I did some reading on the car accident that claimed the lives for four teenagers this past week. My heart is so broken for everyone's lives affected. Those kids, were just that, kids. One was fifteen, two were sixteen, and the other was nineteen. They were just finding themselves in this world and then they were taken away. They were so young.

I cannot imagine what their friends and family are feeling. Sadness, anger, regret, resentment. Death has the tricky way of making you feel several emotions all at once. Their poor parents who now lost their children. I am told there is no greater grief then to lose your child. Can you imagine having to bury your child and not have it the other way around? Can you imagine having them one day and then before you can even blink, they are gone forever? Death is the horrible lock on the door that can never be opened again. *Shivers* I have experienced only one trully painful death in my life and that was my grandpa, my first father and friend. I was only six but the grief still was hard for me to shake off. But I cannot imagine losing someone now, where you able to process things more, and even have memories to haunt you, Ugh...

Can you imagine what these teens friends are going through? What if one kid had all four as friends? Losing all four in one night? I will tell you honestly, I HATE the thought of losing my friends to death. I know I will see them in Heaven again, but until then, it would be so hard.

Can you imagine the lady who did this? Her name is Frances Patricia Dingle. Most people are angry at her but my heart actually breaks for her too. I honestly think I hurt more for her then everybody else. Now I am against drinking and driving like anybody else. When I was in fifth grade of my friends Hannah's family and her were in car accident with a drunk driver. Her mother and the other driver died instantly. Her brothers faced terrible head injuries that last time I heard still leave them handicapped and I believe she is never going to be the same either. She was an incredible friend and so sweet. But to think, the weight of guilt after realizing what you have done, your stupid decision to drink and drive killed someone or worse, several people. To be honest, if that ever happened to me (regardless if I was drunk or not) I would wish I would have died in the crash along with kids. I couldn't live with myself. Can you just imagine how she feels knowing she killed four teenagers? She killed someone's daughter, son, aunt, uncle, sister, brother, friend. Can you imagine her in her cell, trying to sleep but the guilt weighs down on her heart and the only way she can sleep is by crying? Can you imagine living your life knowing what you did? Can you imagine have four families hating you?

I hurt for everyone in this situation. I hurt most for Frances and I am going to be praying for her as often when God brings her to my mind. I will be praying His mighty grace will be evident to her and she will cling to Him for forgivness of her sin. God has His reasons for this tradgey. We may find out in this lifetime or we may never know. He knows what He is doing. "He does all things for His glory and our good!"