His Pain, My Gain

His Pain, My Gain

He cried

looking upward

no one replied

no one heard

His crying out

all this blood shed

this is what love is about

soon to be lead

to Satan's domain

where all souls found dead

but the Father's reign

strong and overpowering

roaring like a train

has Satan cowering

fearing judgement day

but we will not

it does not bring dismay

since our souls no longer rot

instead we will live

and forever praise

our lives we give

but a thankful song we raise

for here is the King

sit on bended knee

come let us sing

for He died for you and me

Survey Says

You want to learn more about Rachel? Well here you go. Here's a random survey I found...

1. Where did you take your profile pic? Germany overlooking a thousand year old city!

2. What exactly are you wearing right now? jeans and grey long sleeved shirt

3. What is your current problem? I need to take a shower, I smell funny ; ) but something's wrong with a water

4. What makes you happy most? mom always says in regards to me "its the little things in life that make Rachel happy." The best thing is having God in my life : )

5. What's the name of the song that you're listening to? The True Art of Music by Thomas Newman...I am instrumental nut!

So...theres a few firetrucks down the block from my house and I am wanting to go check it out, I'm a naturally curious person as it is, especially after the suicide.

6. Any celeb you would marry? if Chad Michael Murray became a hard core christian, I would definitely consider him...but until then, no thank you ; )

7. Name someone with the same birthday as you? well, James Earl Jones, Jim Carrey, Kid Rock, Maury (blah, get another birthday) Muhammad Ali. (not to brag or anything) My adopted grandpa, Denise (one of my moms friends from high school)

8. Ever sang in front of a large audience? many concerts

9. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity? I was told I look like someone...but I can't remember who. My best friends used to say I looked like Princess Leia to get me to watch Star Wars. Ummm nice try...but I did fall in love with movies.

10. Do you still watch kiddy movies or kiddie TV shows? I am with children all the time so I "have" to watch them.

11. Do you speak any languages?English and my own ramble

12. Has anyone you've been really close with passed away? my grandpa, he was my first best friend and father like figure, I still miss him!

13.Do you ever watch MTV? when I am really bored (hardly ever) I'll watch Punk'd

14. What's something that really annoys you? Messy handwriting when Im taking notes for class!

Chapter 1:===============

1. Middle name: Louise

2. Nickname(s): Rach, Rae, Rachie (need to obtain special permission to call me that), Rae Moe, Lou, Bums of Steel, Rocky, Mo-Mo, Sarah's big sister, Shoot and Scoot, (dads are mean sometimes) The Truncate One, Kalina (means sky princess in Aramaic), Scout, Annabelle, Moeses, tons more...

3. Current location: couch in living room

4. Eye color: ocean blue eyes any guy can get lost in hahaha...

Chapter 2:===============

1. Do you get along with your parent(s): We get along great...for the most part, every once awhile we will butt heads because I can be unfortunately very difficult and stubborn

2.Are your parents married/separated/divorced? Married for nineteen beautiful years

3. Do you have any Siblings?: one lovely little sister Sarah (13 going on 14)

Chapter 3: Favourites===============

1. Ice Cream: my own Cold Stone creation- vanilla icecream with oreos and caramel

2. Season: spring

3. Shampoo/conditioner? Herbal Essence- Long Term Relationship for long hair

Chapter 4: Do You..===============

1. Dance in the shower? somehow I think that would end badly

2. Do you write on your hand? I was never allowed too so I stay away from it

3. Call people back? I'm pretty good at it...depends who it is ; )

4. Believe in love? I think I was in love with the idea of being in love

5. Ever talk to yourself? Ha...everyday...and I even argue

6. Any bad habits? time waste

7. Any mental health issues? say what you will...but Im fine according to my psychiatrist ; )

Chapter 5: Have You..===============

1. Broken a bone? surprisingly...no

2. Sprained stuff? my ankles

3. Had physical therapy? yeppers...painful stuff getting your vertrbrae in your neck to move

4. Gotten stitches? tough mainly voice "Who needs stitches anyway" nope

5. Taken painkillers? Yeppers...

6. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling?No, but it would be awesome

7. Been stung by a bee? many many times

8. Thrown up at the dentist? not that I can recall, wouldnt be surprised though to find out

9. Sworn in front of your parents? haha first time I swore I said to my dad "Dad, open the 'Dang' door now" in third grade.

10. Had detention ? nope, all through out school career. The worse I got was screamed at but she later apologized because she thought it was me who was talking.

11. Been called a hoe?:

Mr. Jones: "What do you do when your wife wont listen to you"
Evan: "I'd slap the hoe"
Mr. Jones: "Now that your best friends with every girl in the class Evan, lets move on"

Chapter 6: Who/What was the last===============

1. Movie(s)? A Long Kiss Goodnight - pretty interesting

2. Three people to text you? Techincally I cant text but people keep texting me- Jenn Duff, Ben, and Macey

3. Person you called? Jenn Duffaroo : )

4. Person you hugged? my daddy : )

5. Person you tackled: an attempted failure on my dad

6. Person you talked to on IM? I havent signed on in awhile...i dont remember

7. Thing you touched? reese wrapper

8. Thing you ate? freshiest reeses ever

9. Thing you drank? in the process of finishing a Tropicana Strawberry Melon drink, I can just feel the sugar go right to my teeth

10. Thing you said? "Goodnight and Love you."

As the Thunder Roars

I am sitting in the living room, sort of laying/sitting on our couch, looking for a second job for this summer as a thunderstorm slowly drifts away. Actually it was quite funny tonight, my mom and I were talking about some of the painful things that have happened in my past. (hehe...thunderstorm is coming back) Anywhoo, as I became angry thinking over something as I was saying it, my voice got louder and angrier, just as this loud thunder rumbled through out the whole quick thing. Mom and I had a good laugh about that thinking it was so dramatic.

I am truly thankful this week is almost over. It hasn't been a horrible week, just very emotionally draining. Life isn't bad necessarily, (my circumstances do not determine my happiness) it just has been a long week. A few little things have come up, stuff like a lady I worked for and with last summer is dying. I am trying not to let myself think too deeply of it but I can't run forever, it's going to hit me that a lady I spent everyday with loving on her with everything in me to feed her, bathe her, get her out of bed every morning, talking with her, watching TV...it's gonna hit me that she has about a week left to live when I have a chance to realize the sadness of it.

Then there is this situation at work, that I had not seen the enormity of the situation till this morning. I need so much prayer in this situation, I am fighting the hugest spiritual battle in my life at a christian school. Those beautiful little people are not being treated right, I myself being beaten over and over again, and God's name in this place is no where near being glorified. That situation right then and there has completely ran me completely dry this week. I am so weary that I feel like collapasing on my bed and never waking up again. But I need to go to work, everyday during the week, and stand up for those beautiful amazing children and I need to stand up for gospel.

Pray...I need strength in this fight.