A Few Honest Confessions

Currently Listening to: Undertow- Jordan Anderson

Currently Snacking on: Toast with peanutbutter and cinnamon

Current Novel Reading: Message in a Bottle by Nicholas Sparks

Current Topical Reading: Let God be God by Ray C. Stedman

Over the process of the last few days I have found out a troubling fact about myself. I have become complacent in my walk with God. I go to church twice on Sunday, Wednesday nights, I serve in a ministry, I attend bible study Sunday nights. I also pray quite often. I even open my bible to read it everyday for a quick read so I can check it off my list of things to do. However, I realized today that I make the bear mininum a Christian does to honor God.

I spend more time reading fictional books and get more out of them then when I read the precious word of God. I open up my Bible, read the verses my devotional says for me to read, and journal thoughts- on somedays. There are days more often then not, I'll just read the verse and not even let myself think of what I just read. What I just read will fade from memory as soon as another thought comes along. It's truly sad more than anything that it's how much I value reading the bible.

I humbly admit my prayer life isn't bad. It is not the best or the worst. It certianly could be so much better. People used to say that I was a huge prayer warrior and even one friend said he knew when I was praying for him. Now, I just pray for easy stuff if you will. I have random reminders to help me pray for others. Everytime I see wild berry skittles I pray for Jeremy for instance or when I use my wipers and see sour patch kids, I pray for Kevin, or when someone says something about a Mac I pray for Josh. Things like that... but I hardly pray for the unsaved souls in my life or in the world, for my own purity, that I will glorify Him every moment of my day. My best time to pray is infact when I am driving. I actually pray out loud and talk to God. So if you ever pull up next to me and see me talking out loud, more often then not Im praying.

Anywhoo...that's what Im wrestling with lately. Pray that these convictions will get me to change. God's grace is more than enough for me to get out of bed in the morning or to climb a mountain. : )